Spirituality, and Faith.

So I recently decided that I am ready to find a true faith. I’m pretty spiritual, I feel Christianity is what I fit best with, and now I’m exploring different denominations of it.

It’s quite exciting. I’m christened into the Anglican church, but I don’t know if it’s really right for me. I’m currently looking into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (aka Mormonism!) and I’m very intrigued by what I’m finding. I’ve been talking with two ladies, Trina and Tiffany on Mormon.org and I know they are just trying to do their jobs as missionaries, but they are really selling the religion to me.

They seem to focus very much on love and togetherness (as do most faiths) and when I mentioned to the missionaries that I felt lonely, despite having a very loving family, and that something was missing, they suggested I read The Book of Mormon, and attend a service, both of which I am waiting to do as my lovely friend Lucy is going to help me out.

I’ve also looked into Catholicism. Whilst the church has suffered much criticism for their cover ups of sex abuse, and their fundamentalist views on gay marriage and abortion, divorce and birth control, and I feel it couldn’t hurt them to modernise a little more, I liked the personal aspect associated with repentance. The confessional booths seemed very appealing, so intimate and confidential. To me that is the intimacy and closeness you have with ‘God’, with another human being. But then there is the conflicting matter of confessing your sins to someone who is not ‘God’, which, forgive me if I’m wrong, but is unbiblical? I also quite love (and have several) rosary beads, but again, there is conflict between denominations over the significance of these beads, and whether they’ve become idolic. So there are a few issues I have with Catholicism, thanks to my A Level in Theology and Philosophy at a Catholic college.

I’m on something of a journey, I’d like to think. It’s not easy, but I have faith I will find ‘God’ (I type ‘God’ like that because I don’t know what I’ll end up calling Him. Guess it depends on where I end up.) eventually. I’d love to know what you all think on the subject, although I will ask that if you are an atheist, that you are polite. I wouldn’t dream of being rude to someone who held different beliefs to my own, and this piece is simply what was on my mind, I am not trying to force my views on to anybody (it would be quite difficult to do that, given I currently don’t KNOW what my beliefs are.), I am simply talking about my journey into Christianity.


Leonardo Dicaprio yet again lights up the Big Screen, with all the glitz of the Roaring Twenties.

Please don’t read if you don’t want to see spoilers!
When I went to see The Great Gatsby last week, I was thoroughly excited. I had the whole tingling feeling you get when you’re stood in line at the cinema, clutching your tickets in one hand, and your reluctant boyfriends hand in the other. One of my favourite books, a story filled with hope, however misguided that hope is; and I’ll admit, I was slightly apprehensive. Baz Luhrmann has a gift for the visually astounding, yet my fears lay in this glamour detracting too much from the already stunning story.
But I must say, I was not in the slightest disappointed. From the opening scene, I was sat on the edge of my seat, lost in the atmosphere and the astonishingly opulent scenery. Tobey Maguire is an actor I’ve enjoyed from the Spiderman trilogy, and I’ve unfortunately not had chance to experience his talent in much else. But I have to say, his interpretation of Nick Carraway, was true to the book: quiet, observant, hypocritical, and full of admiration for Jay Gatsby. Nick’s role is secondary to Gatsby, observing and relaying the Roaring New York socialite activity whilst passing judgement throughout, despite his claims that he’s inclined “to reserve all judgements”.
Tobey MacGuire looked perfect in the role of a hapless writer turned stockbroker, and I was very pleased with the more passionate scenes involving Nick, such as at Gatsby’s funeral and his very tangible grief. This is another reason to bring a companion; tissue storage and dispenser (necessary for this film!)
Carey Mulligan also delivered a stunning performance as Daisy Buchanan. Head to toe in real diamonds, (well done costuming department!) she looked every inch the elegant, upper class, old money, trophy wife. When she was first introduced in the film, with her beautiful, relaxed appearance, I knew she was the perfect page-to-screen Daisy. Carey is a beautiful actress, no doubt, but her appearance is not the only thing I mean: it was the air she carried about her, the constant underlying sadness in her eyes, and the self imposed vacant, emptiness I often felt that’s present in the book and thankfully remained in the film; a testament to Mulligan’s skill.

I could gush further about the fabulous casting, Elizabeth Debicki’s ice queen attitude as an aloof independent modern woman was perfect. Again, props to the costume department for their work. Jordan Baker is undoubtedly one of my favourite characters and to see her on the Big Screen, as strong a presence as she was in the book, was truly refreshing. It i
s my personal opinion that there are not enough women like Jordan portrayed in the film industry, and I was so stunned by her throughout the film. Women who can thrive and succeed in such intense patriarchy are fantastic role models to young girls, and it is shame that more Jordan Bakers aren’t shown. But it is true that the star of the spectacle, was Leonardo Dicaprio.

Having first fallen in love with Leonardo in 2001, the first time I saw Titanic,
I was six, so lets use the term ‘love’ fast and loose, I’ve been a major fan of his, in his acting and his environmental work. I know I’m not alone in thinking he’s quite dishy, you know you agree, but there is something in Leonardo’s acting that elevates him above the typical Hollywood approach to some actors (“he’s cute, cast him regardless!”)
Dicaprio has talent, sheer, unabashed talent. I have admired him in such versatile roles, my favourite film of his being The Basketball Diaries (I strongly recommend this film, it is very.. powerful) which sees him play Jim Carroll, a troubled teen suffering with a severe drug addiction. Since 1989 when his career began, Leonardo Dicaprio has grown and flourished into a well seasoned actor, with plenty of big hits under his belt. My personal inner fury that he’s not yet won an Oscar shall be kept out of this review, (I’ll allow it to fester some more and save it for a Dicaprio dedicated article) but what I will say, is that I was truly moved by his Gatsby. His aloof outer shell slowly fractured throughout the summer, and his downfall was a mirror image of the book’s protagonist yet added something so fresh to it. The confrontation in The Plaza had me on tenterhooks and when Jay Gatsby finally broke in front of Tom, my hand flew to my mouth in…well, shock. Leonardo’s acting was so intense and emotional, that I had tears in my eyes. Dicaprio has a way of presenting a characters pain in such a way that it moves the watcher intensely. I tore my eyes away from the screen to people watch, and noticed that my boyfriend aside, who may as well have been asleep, similar reactions were had all around me. I have to say, in my eyes, Dicaprio was entirely flawless. I can’t fault him.
Such beautiful scenery, such elegant costuming, and such a fantastic selection of actors. But I believe a soundtrack can have as great an effect as what you’re watching, and I held great faith in Baz Luhrmann’s previous movies to deliver a fantastic soundtrack. You’ve only to watch Moulin Rouge (a film in my top 10!) to know that modern music will not necessarily be out of place in Charleston loving New York. Beyonce takes on arguably one of Amy Winehouse’s best, ‘Back to Black‘, Florence and the Machine, Gotye and Sia all feature, really bringing the film to life and into the world of the 21st century watcher. The track to listen out for though is easily Lana Del Rey’s ‘Young and Beautiful‘. It’s moving, it strikes home with many young listeners, it practically screams Daisy’s character. I just cannot get enough of this song, it is so haunting, Daisy and Gatsby’s illicit dance in the moonlight, it was just spine-tingling.
So if I haven’t convinced you that this film should be on your DVD shelf the day it’s released then that’s a true shame, because even if it’s not your favourite book, The Great Gatsby will absolutely immerse you in the extravagence, the affluence, and the raging, roaring, frankly riotous Golden 20s, and by the end of the tale, you’ll be left utterly speechless.
Hattie J. Baker